我的人生为什么会变成这样 ~

现在的我，就好像在我人生的最低層！

I'm really very stress, tired and lost now. 

I really don't know why, I'll get myself in all this shits. 

I really don't know why, I'll get myself into all this troubles. 

I really don't know why, I'll get myself to stepped into all this. 

Why in the first place I step into all this & cause so much things to happen. 

It's a very wrong step and now I'm in deep shit!

Why am I so stupid, so insensible? 

I'm physically and mentally torn out, worn out, stressed out.

I've been crying all these while.

I can't get to sleep.

I don't have appetite to eat.

I don't feel like talking to anyone. 

All I can do, I used to do is to keep to myself, handling it all by myself. 

But now, I can no longer take it, I can no longer handle it all by myself.

I blame myself for all this shits, causing so much troubles to the ones beside me. 

I hate myself for making the ones that love me worry. 

I'm sorry, but there's nothing I can do.

Stressed up

Hello, I'm here to update again (:

This 2 months have not been smooth for me, it's rather stressed up, it's all about money. Sometimes, I wonder, why do we human need to be so stressed up with money. Le sigh ~

You actually know that I'm so stressed up with money issue, yet you still can text/whatsapp me asking for money from me. Yes, I know I owed you your allowance that you took care of my boys when I'm overseas, but remember I've already passed part of it to you, but you were the one that want to borrow money to him. So, chase the money that you borrow to him & not me. Previously, every month end will receive your text/whatsapp asking for rental, now is asked for allowance. I never say I don't want to give, is that it's still not the deadline, & I know if he know you've money, he sure will ask from you, but you don't understand. You only feel that I got the money, but is just that I don't want to give. 

其实， 我很不喜欢让你知道我已经拿工钱了, 因为一旦你知道了，你就会开始一直text/whatsapp我，很烦你知不知道！

Till then, xoxo! ♡